urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:phattydave Dave Dave 2003-07-17T08:57:21Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:phattydave:493 2003-07-17T08:57:21Z 2003-07-17T08:57:21Z Well isn't it just great, I'm being conned into writing in this bullshit journal. I don't plan on writing more than one, maybe two entries, but nonetheless I'm still here. I'll tell you what. This summer was going great, I thought I was having an excellent time, thought I had everything figured out - Good friends having good times. I was wrong. People I think/thought are/were my friends for sure aren't really looking like such great friends anymore. It seems to me that all I really am to them is a fucking ride. I'm not needed other than for my car. Yeah, I'm leaving this Sunday for around a month. Nobody could care any less than they do now. Half of these people don't even know I'm leaving, nor do they understand my extreme feeling for Europe. I feel like I belong there more, fit in there more. I'm 1 generation removed from Europe by my biological parents (read: simply birth mother) and I've been raised in a very European environment where my grandparents are straight out of "Scandinavia" Enough of the tangent - I'm not feeling very happy about this whole experience and I would like to resolve it as soon as possible. To find out if I'm correct in any of my assumptions I'm going to make a little experiment - Not phone a single one of them tommorrow and see what happens. I don't mind staying home, I've been absolutely exhausted lately! JEEZ what a waste of my time...